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I can't believe I'm in this again...

Can't believe it..

Yes.. I'm serious. I can't believe I will be in uniform again tomorrow, less than 6mths after I left.... I'm going to feel weird and look weird..

Projects and more projects... but very soon it will be all over... bring on the weekend, I need to relax!

飞了，他真的飞了。。

我的兄弟刚给我打了个电话，说他已经在机场，再过一小时就要上飞机了。

他这样一去，就足足去17天。。 说短不短，说久不久。在他离去之前的那几天，他说他心情很乱，不知如何是好. 他不敢去想象，回来过后也不知道会怎样。我就对他说，其实你不必想太多，因为你越去想它，你脑海里就越乱。连自己在想什么，和为什么会那么想也不知道。但不去想，却谈何容易呢?

我也对他说其实最远的不是人与人之间的距离，而是他心里的那段距离。如何去克服它？这问题我看只有他最清楚吧。。

其实很多人在感情方面都不祈求太多，只要彼此相爱，开心就是最大的辛福。爱一个人需要很大的勇气。两个人能相爱而在一起，就是注定。但两个人若是相爱却不能在一起就是遗憾。不求什么，只要彼此开心，这不是最美的爱情吗？

我常说爱情这东西，可欲不可求，一切就随源. 但若源份一到, 就得自己去争取. 我的兄弟就是这样, 勇敢地面对自己的感觉, 不顾一切的去争取他的辛福与快乐. 有几个人会这么做?

Sedate...

I'm feeling a sudden sense of calmness over me, some what collected and composed, and living up to my nickname, which obviously hasn't been the case for the past weeks or as long as I could remember.

I just woke up, because I stayed up to do my HR project till the wee hours of the morning. I'm so stoned and just don't feel like moving.

I WANT RETAIL THERAPY VERY SOON! Damn.. I saw this long sleeved shirt I really like at Zara that day, but it's like $75 and it's not an everyday wear, and wonder if I should get it? And running shoes, I need too.

Anyway here is an excerpt of a conversation I had that day:

Him> Bra, I think u have changed alot..
Me> Have I?? What u mean?
Him> Ya.. different from those "hee hee ha ha" days back in army...
Me> Really meh.. I still the same wat!
Him> No la.. u like more serious le.. haha
Me> Hahaaa what tat means I'm getting old?
Him> Aiya.. maybe lor, everyone is la...
Me> Heong..
Him> Haha...
Me> I will always be me laar... *snigger*

Have I changed?? I mean, yeah.. Somethings yes, but generally I'm still the same I guess. Probably he hasn't seen the serious side of me ha! Especially when it comes to this kinda stuff, right? But the one which is full of pride and ego in the past is dead and buried, and they will not come back to me anymore. I still can't be perfect, cos nobody is, but I'm trying my best to be a better person (hmm sounds like some Robbie Williams' song).

Anyway my best pal reckons that I'm still very much the same, or so she thinks.. hehe.. Me? I'm not sure, you all decide!

Counting down....

Take care brather!!

Pertaining to my previous post, it suddenly hit me that "Mummy and Muffins" sounds like a good entrepreneurial start up for a pastry shop! Hmm anyone wants to join me in this?? Ok I've gotta trademark that already.

Wine appreciation class today was cool, the reds were pretty good, especially the cab. sauvignon. Mae seemed to be more interested in the cheese than the wine!

Anyway my dear brather will be flying off to Melbourne this Sunday. I'm gonna miss you bra! Take care, have a safe trip and come back in one piece!!

Darn is this the " there's a Brokeback in every guy" (Na, 2006) that I've heard? But I'm VERY straight ok..

Ok then, going back to my projects. Can't believe it, the semester is ending already. Argh!

Mummy and muffins

I love my mummy.. seriously... I mean, who doesn't?

She buys me my favourite chocolate muffins and cream buns cos I'm perpetually complaining of hunger at night and she knows that I'm stressed with projects and tests. Yes.. I love my mummy!!

And my chocolate muffin!

Hip Hip Hooray!!

Went to Swensens for dinner just now, was there for an hour plus then suddenly realised I was wearing the exact same colour as the waiters/waitresses.. Gosh!! Imagine this scenario if I were to walk by a table and the person says "xcuse me can I have ice-water?" What am I to say? "Go get yourself?" So I asked for the bill and left promptly to avoid any potential embarrasment.

Went to walk around after dinner to digest the food, barely walked for half an hour and we ended up at Ben and Jerry's for dessert! Oh my goodness.. I have to start exercising really soon or I'm gonna fail my IPPT.

Some fantastic news I got, my old friend Casey is being posted Frankfurt! How cool is that? I remember I had a wicked time when I stayed with him in Vancouver 2 years back (when he was posted there), so this time, I'm gonna use my free ticket and visit him this December! I've never been to Germany before!! Ah.. I'm so excited... Plan plan plan plan.. Xmas there would be the best! Ah... *Cue music* I'm....... dreaming of a white.... Christmas..........

Man I tell ya, he's such a high flier.. This is his 4th overseas posting already, having been posted to Taipei, Vancouver and KL! Such a lucky guy, and I can't wait to see his baby boy!! What great news and motivation at the end of a traumatic week. Projects? Test? Exams? No problem!! I have something to look forward to this year! Muahahaha......

Took it from the roof terrace of the esplanade.. Its the Mosaic Fest! Ya and it started raining after I took this pic.. =P

Heatwave......

Finally my blog is up and running again. Had some error message last night and even I ouldn't view my own blog. So those of you who tried to access my blog, no I didn't block you...

Went to my uncle's house to interview him for my HR project and I practically had to drag my ass off the bed this morning. After that went to NYP for lunch and further discussions, and we got lost inside! Didn't know it was so big....

Gonna study soon.. Can someone do something about the weather??

Early bird

If you notice the time, its only 8am.. I logged in to extend my library loan which I forgot to do so last night and decided that I had a little time to blog.

Have been troubled by a couple of matters for the past few days, but I guess that's how life goes. In fact, I'm sure these matters made me see through and also made me a better person, in terms of everything in general.

So I'll just leave things as it is, because I know I've already tried my best. The other variables are not up to me really. Eventually, some things will have a funny way of working out themselves when left alone.

All the best to myself and all those in my thoughts!

Stupid ego

Why is that all men have this stupid thing called ego? The "I wanna feel good" factor and sticking the nose above all? Yes I'm a man too, and I admit that sometimes ego plays a part in my head, but I always make it a point not to let it overrun me.

The worst thing one could do is to give up what he cherishes just for the very fact that their ego is more important than anything else. HELLO! Wake up ok?? Is your ego more important or what you cherish is more important? Ok let's come straight to the point, do you LOVE your ego more or you love HER more? I don't understand what the fusk is going on inside your dumbass head!

Let's face it, pride and ego takes us nowhere. If you really love her, then don't let your pride and ego take charge of you.

I'm having so much thoughts piled up inside my head right now and I can't help but feel frustrated. It's like a mental constipation of sorts, so much inside but can't get them all out. Argh!!

这世上最遥远的不是人与人之间的距离，而是你心里的那段距离...

Clouded by thoughts...

Met my dear brather today, and we had a heart to heart talk, well, sort of. I must say that he is very brave, to challenge the odds and go out and get what he wants. He is a really sweet guy, and sometimes, somethings I wished I could be like him.

Why is it that the more you like somebody, the more sensitive you will get? The simplest of things she does can make you go into a frenzy and makes you all edgy. Is it because of the fear of losing her?

Is long term happiness more important or short term happiness? I guess this is a very subjective issue yet no one could give me an affirmative answer.. Not even myself could answer this question.

Fate is always the deciding factor in most matters, but when fate arrives, it is really up to you to go out and grab it. It's not everyday that you meet the one you really like, so don't let this opportunity pass you. Living to regret it is the most painful thing you can ever experience.

Give yourself and the other party some time and don't start to run before you can walk. Just like driving, you will get caught by the TP-WRX if you are going too fast and lose your license. However if you are too slow, others will overtake and reach the destination before you.

Love is bittersweet.. It's about giving but not expecting anything in return. But how many people can do that?

Yes.. I'm thinking of all these after talking to him. What can I do?

Great weekend!

Yes.. the title says it all. Wonderfully caps a somewhat rough week. But in this rough week, I have learnt an important lesson in life, and also found time to catch up with my brathers, guys whom I will always treasure the bond I have with, friendship that I will always keep close to my heart. Yes, sounds mushy? Before you think otherwise, I'm straight ok..

Sentosa yesterday was relaxing. Today was fun, movie was hilarious and I must say I enjoyed myself and of course the company. *BIG SMILES*

Why must the weekend end so quickly??

Cheers brathers!

I wonder why I did what I did. I felt stupid, betrayed. Seems like it doesn't pay to be kind.

Maybe I was too trusting.

It serves as a lesson. I'm thankful it happened now, not later. I'm also thankful of the angels who heard and consoled me yesterday, you know who you are.. *Big Grins Big Thanks*

Met up with a couple of my brathers this week! So good to see them again, and I will be going to the IT fair with brather Wayne later..

My K750i is back! So here goes.......







Crystal Jade, always my/our favourite! Yes we ate up a storm today, sort of... Hehehe..

Patience..

To develop patience, you need someone who wilfully hurts you. Such people give us the real opportunity to practise tolerance. They test our inner strength in a way that even our guru cannot. Basically, patience protects us from being discouraged.. -- the Dalai Lama

Munich Munich

Watched Munich with brathers Andy and Jerry this evening. It was pretty good, somehow living up to my expectations, but the ending got a little draggy and abrupt. Overall the flow of the story was good, albeit bloody, hence the M18 rating. Once again, like Brokeback, no one checked my IC. Haiz.......

Anyway the story was pretty political, and since it was on terrorism, it tried to get across that you cannot solve a problem just by annihilating it, as it would lead to bigger, more powerful problems. Some food for thought again.

Wow they are playing retro tv serial songs on tv now, from the 80s to early 90s.. Haha.. Think 雾锁南阳， 和平的代价， 咖啡乌 and 豆腐街..

I'm not perfect and I know I can never be, but I will try my best to make up for my shortcomings...

Work hard play hard!

Yes, that shall be the way. I have to work hard at school to achieve good grades but also play hard so that I will not be a dull boy. Haha! Boy is like an understatement, when I'm already 2X years this year..

Had dinner with my brother at Crystal Jade La Mian. Is it just me or has the amount of noodles become less? Hmm.. but it was still satisfying la. Good food for me anytime.

Actually nothing much to say today.. So.... that's all folks...

Sometimes

It's already March, can you believe it.

Sometimes I look at the things to come and stubbornly don't want them to happen.
Sometimes someone else's problem also becomes my problem.
Sometimes the prettiest thing isn't exactly the best thing.
Sometimes things don't go how I want them to.
Sometimes what I get is not exactly what I want.
Sometimes I wonder why time passes so quickly and what I should do to maximise every second.
Sometimes I think of those who made an impact in my life with their invaluable advice.

All the time, I wish the people around me will always be happy.

I won!

Yes I won the battle with my HMT project finally, today.. Though more than half the time I wasn't aware of what I was typing. But well, it's done and I have more than 3 days to fine tune it.

I think I have been giving myself far too much stress. I should unwind and relax abit. It's only my first semester and I have been looking forward to school for so long. Relax...........

I thought it was a pretty bad start to the year, but it's not exactly that bad after I think of some happenings. Some things and some people are just so sweet, they make me smile with the simplest of things. Yes I'm a simple person..

Oh my K750i is in the hospital. I'm using daddy dearest's Motorola now and I'm struggling with it, especially with sms and how not to close the flip so hard all the time. Can't wait to get my beloved SE back!

Lazy and too brain dead to type out this week's theory. Watch this space.